Feelings and issues

[Hellblazer]

I just wanna know if this feeling is normal

For me, yes.

Is it normal to feel this way?

Obviously, no.

have you been here?

Obviously, yes, even right now.

where's the freaking way out?

Nothing, just don't give a f***. Let life pass by the way it is. Just don't get tensed about anything, whether past/present/future, enjoy life the way you can; but doesn't mean to do 'stupid' things alike. Nothing in life is yours. Nobody's opinion about you matters. Honestly, people will say what they want; will you get anything by listening to them? No. Just ignore... And have fun with valid reasons while you can; getting tensed will just end up life in nothing but pure emptiness...

Lately, I been feeling nothing but depression, self-hate and self-critisism. am on the point of feeling nothing at all, enjoying nothing, feeling that the world seems to be a good place for everyone else but me, walking around with a cloud above my head, all my sweet memories are not sweet anymore, I know all this sounds weird but its the truth.
You want something so bad, then you have it and your not even surprised or imperessed, I always wanted to be the best in everything I do but fate always goes the other way, Shattered dreams (I wanted to be a doctor but am not).

As i said, do whatever you like to do, and have fun. (Not actually drugs and stuff tho.) I can't say much about this, for the latter part; but the initial part is what i described. (self hate, critism, when you want something, etc.)

A question: Do you have a job or are you still studying?

I dont feel like loving or liking a girl nomore, they all look alike, but there is this girl that used to stalk me back in high school, she grow up now and were on a contact again, for now .. shes everything I have left but I don't feel like dating her or something, its complicated as f***! I just don't feel like existing anymore, I wanna die ..

Cant say anything about this..?



Thank you